My breastfeeding story
I think this is an important for me to post as it took me a long time to accept that it wasn't going to work out for us. My story is a very brief one that only lasted two weeks.
I struggled from the offset and had a lots of tears that went with that. When in hospital and the first few days home I was souly breast feeding but she would struggle to latch or would be onnfor such a short amount of tine and then be hungry a few minutes later.
When in hospital I remember getting very upaet and another Mum on the ward reassured me and said that it was a struggle with her too, this helped a little until that night. Lilly had been fussy since Daddy had left and wouldn't latch at all. In the end a lovely midwife came over, got me to lie on my side, got Lilly to latch a told me to close my eyes and gdt some sleep. She said that she would check on me soon and move Lilly if need be. I woke about 3 in the morning to find Lilly fast asleep in the cot. That was the only midwife in the two days I was a in hospital that actually offered help to me with feeding her.
On another occasion I knew thar Lilly was hungry and could not get her to latch, Liam went to find my midwife to tell her I needed help, she arrived half an hour later because she didn't want to miss her lunch break and didn't think of sending anyone else to help.
After a few days I then decided to pump as well which started off ok but I wasn't getting a lot if milk out. This also made the struggle of feeding her worst and just seemes such a struggle to even get any milk in her. Liam suggested getting some formula in and give that a go as well, combine the two.
This started to work quite well for a few days and I continued to try and feed. She still wasn't latching properly unless I was lying on my side. In the end she was on for 40 minutes and still seemed hungry, she then took 3 ounces of fomula. I tried pumping still but was only getting an ounce a time.
I think to me this was the point that I thought that it just wasn't fair on either of us and decided to bottle feed her from then on.
Looking back, if these was more help in the hospital or even after I would bave continue for longer, and looking back, maybe if I'de have persisted. It made me so upset that I felt inadequate BUT now I look back, I am proud that I managed two weeks, I have a healthy and happy daughter, and if we have more in the future I will hopefully have a better experience.