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My Lilly, I have found this so hard to write and I don't quite know why. It has been four years since you entered our world in such a dramatic way and I can't quite believe it. I remember sitting there for the first 13 minutes of your life scared to the bottom of my heart, you had decided to come not breathing and needed help for a few minutes. Luckily you were fine and your Daddy got the first big cuddle. You have made our lives so hectic and crazy but I wouldn't change it for the world, because that hectic life is full of playing and learning. Our little family, in my eyes is perfect. I hope that you have had a truely wonderful day and that you know how much we love you. You make me smile sk many times in a day and I instantly feel better. You're turning four today? It certainly doesn't seem possible that it has been so long since you were born, it goes so quickly. Every day you seem to change in some little way which only adds to your amazing...

This is a rather different post to what I normally write but I feel like I have to.  Looking back on my pregnancy and the first few months of having Lilly I was so naive. I really didn't know what I was doing and what I had to come. I was very lucky with my pregnancy on how it went. I never thought about how much my body would change or anything, I never brought a maternity item or any special creams for stretch marks so I ended up living in jogging bottoms or jeans held together with a hairtie.  The one thing that I did use was pretty natal vitamins from the very start.  Going into the final few week I packed my hospital bag which was almost OK as had watched a few YouTube video. I made sure that I had plenty of bits for Lilly and even took some milk cartons in to. I went into labor just as I wanted to, with my waters breaking and got very excited but ended up being sick for about an hour after they broke, I then went into panic mode which in ...

I cannot believe that my little girl is going to be three years old. I see her grow and change every day but can't believe that three years have passed since I gave birth to her. Three years today was the most surreal day of my life, starting a new chapter, not only for me and but for me and Liam as a couple.  She is the best thing that happened to us and I am so thankful that we have a beautiful, clever little girl who knows how to make us smile and feel better with her quirky personality. I have watched her grow into this little girl who wants to explore and learn in any way she can, she knows how to push our limits and winds us up like no tomorrow but I wouldn't change her for the world. To Our Lilly, We wish you a very happy birthday,  You have made our life so fun and unpredictable, you have an amazing personality and you make me laugh and and smile so much every day, You have so many amazing adventures coming along and I know that you a...

I have been thinking about this a lot lately, and wanted to write it down before my memory forgets bits and I thought that it would be cool to share with you. So on the 12th of September 2012, I had a sweep performed and was told to get rest, have a bath and that sort of thing, I had also been booked in to be induced on the 15th if sweep didn't work. I remember her telling me that it may be uncomfortable, and I said back I have to give birth in the next week and she laughed. So that day I went home and relaxed, nothing happened. On the Thursday I woke up late, had a bath and loads of food...nom lol. Then at about 8:30pm I had rather a major bleed, so went to hospital to be monitored for an hour, was sent home about about 10pm. This turned out to be my plug. I tried to go straight to sleep but was getting little twinges. Managed to kind of drop off at about 11pm and then my waters decided to break. I sat up and went to my other half 'I think my waters have...