Birth and having a Newborn • So unprepared
This is a rather different post to what I normally write but I feel like I have to.
Looking back on my pregnancy and the first few months of having Lilly I was so naive. I really didn't know what I was doing and what I had to come.
I was very lucky with my pregnancy on how it went. I never thought about how much my body would change or anything, I never brought a maternity item or any special creams for stretch marks so I ended up living in jogging bottoms or jeans held together with a hairtie.
The one thing that I did use was pretty natal vitamins from the very start.
Going into the final few week I packed my hospital bag which was almost OK as had watched a few YouTube video. I made sure that I had plenty of bits for Lilly and even took some milk cartons in to.
I went into labor just as I wanted to, with my waters breaking and got very excited but ended up being sick for about an hour after they broke, I then went into panic mode which in the end got me to make the awful choice to have an epidural (Which I completely regret now).
Breast feeding didn't go fully to plan either, I ended up feeding for just two weeks that way as it just didn't seem enough to make Lilly full so ended up bottle feeding from then on.
The first few weeks after having her were a blur, they just seemed to merge into one. I became a recluse, I stayed indoors a lot and just let life pass us by.
Looking back I would have done so many things differently. I was such a naive young woman who was so unprepared
My other half and my mum where my rock during the whole time.
I would certainly do a lot of things different and be a lot more prepared and not so panicy.